Bebel. Dont bother to read. Sorry.

Hi? Hey. Hm. Honestly, qila tengah sedih sikit. Ehe. Bukan apa. Dia mcm terkesukkk sikit ehe. Sebab nya, kakak qila nak kahwin dah.... Next year. Hehe bukan minggu depan ye? Hihi. Tak sangka 2016 is a week ahead us hehe. Hm. Anyway, yes. She's getting married............ And i dont know what to say. I mean. Dia kata nak kahwin in March (insyaallah) but nape awal sangat kak oi :(

What will happen to me...... Still tak puas kot manja dgn kakak hahaahahah i know it sounds so gedik but it's true...... Nanti kakak dah kahwin mesti la kakngah pulak next? Eh that's not the point hahaha!

It's just that........ Tak sangka. She's going to be 25 hehe.

And im gong to be freaking 20 in a week. (on 10th August to be precise :p) hehe. Twenteen ok. Still teeeenager ok muahaha. See? Im in denial. Hahah.

Hm. Yay nanti finally saya ada abang--ipar huhu hm but. Idk hahaaha.

Im sorry. It's hard.

Pastu minggu ni macam minggu jodoh untuk qila. Hahahaha sebab umi dia mcm sedih. Anak anak besau dah. And she felt so content and thankful that dia panjang umur lagi utk tengok anak dia membesar. (qila terbesar) hahahahaha. And then termasuk bab degree qila hehe. Qila cakap la,

UMI???? DEGREE UIA LAMA AH UMI. MCM 4-5 TAHUN. Hmmmm lama kan hmmm takut aaa umi :( mesti susah nanti aaaaa takut umi umi umi hahahah

Pastu boleh pulak umi tetiba cakap.....

KAKNGAH? KALAU U JUMPA JODOH DKT UIA.....U KAHWIN JELA TERUS OK????? KENDURI BUAT NANTI JE. KALAU JUMPA KAHWIN JE TERUS. SEBAB DEGREE U TU LAMA SANGAT LA.

ERKKKKKKKKKKKKK

Ya allah. UMI?!?!?!?! WHAT IS WRONG WITH U? :(((( NONONONOOOOO qila tak mo kahwin lagi la umi nanti kena tinggal umi abah nonono im so clingy and stupid like that noooo hahahahahah. Sumpah la cannot imagine ughhhh. Dah la kata kata umi tu doa???? OMG NO!! Qila nak kahwin lepas study la umi nononoooooo jgn bagi restu lagi wait it right there cut it!!!! hahahaha. Nanti takleh focus oh tidak saya dah jadi gila ugh ugh ugh pastu qila macam tetiba ada quote muncul di otak haha

Dear self, this is LIFE. LIFE ISNT FREAKING EASY. OKAY? PLS LA.

Sigh.
And hey. Happy new year and happy holiday? :) Im so happy to get stuck in jam sebab ramai balik kampung ye cuti ni? Hihi. Hey UIA? Mu tunggu aku datang wiwiwi~

Jodoh. Ko pergi jauh jauh pls jgn nak main main kan perasaan haku. Pls la annoying ok. Cant wait to gain ilmu yayayayayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and qila betul betul suka apa yg Mat Luthfi cakap about this one hehe.

Seriously.

How can you like someone u barely know?

You dont even know, not half, not even a quarter of me.

My bad habit, my dark side. You haven't seen me in despair, my anger, my resentment.

You haven't seen me at my lowest point, how weak I could be when the time hits it.

How do I know if you can handle my shit? How do I know if I can handle yours?

PEOPLE ARE NOT 24/7 HAPPY. Don't confuse love with admiration ;)

GO MARRY SOMEONE YOU KNOW, MARRY SOMEONE YOU HAVE SEEN HIS DISAPPOINTMENT AND ANGER, AND YOU KNOW YOU CAN HANDLE THEM.

GO MARRY SOMEONE YOU TRULY LOVE.

Hm. How to know someone if i dont even know any guy hahahaha ok bye

Nanti kalau qila nak gi dating kena lama lama lah. Kena buat orang tu marah, upset, sedih bagai.

And jgn lupa ajak org ketiga utk dating. Ha gituw.

OK QILA DAH BOLEH TUTUP BUKU PSL JODOH/LOVE/BOYFIE/ WHATEVER BERKENAAN UNTUK 2015 YAY!!!! Goodbye! See ya next year hahaha

Ok last quote hahaha.

Take life day by day, 

and be grateful for the little things. 

Don’t get stressed over what you can’t control.

—  Unknown Author.

Make the last chapter the perfect one.

Make the last chapter the perfect one.

Yes please!

Ha. So harini the last day of December and also last day of 2014 uish can u belieeve it?

It is less than 24hours nak habis dah. Start new year balik hehe.

Banyak tahun ni qila buat  benda gila. Hihi.

Gi jumpa Encik Mimpi. Eh. Hahaha.
Daapat selfie dgn Aedy Ashraf yg sangat ncem dekat KlYesFestival 2014 hehu.

Gi bigbadwolf hampir 3 kali ekeke. Nasibaik sempat Part 1 dan Part 2 je hewhew.

Masuk uia pj dan uia gombak. Ha ko ada masuk 2 uni ekeke.

Pastu live life in university wah cannot believe im 18 and im in uni wiwiwi. Puasa dkt university mmg sedih pedih. Heheh. Haritu gi jalan tengok ramai gila budak uia. Boys especially encem encem!! (Betul lah umi abah ckp takyah cari pakwe bila sekolah sbb dkt uia ni banyak dah yg encem hahahah!)

 (eh eh eh eh eh baru sedor diri sendiri pon dh besor har har) 

Sedih nya nanti habis study kena kerja takut nya!!! :(((( taknak :(((

Tapi best lah pulak bila teringat reflect balik what ive done tahun ni. Dulu qila malu je nak keluar rumah sbb rasa insecure nak mampos. Rasa mcm gemok bodoh hodoh gila eeeee malu nya! Taknak keluar rumah!!!!!!!
Im really sorry to all my friends when i say i can't go out 'i don't feel well'
i actually mean i can't go out because i feel disgustingly fat

but know. Who cares hehe. I mean. Astaghfirullahal'azim tak baik tau cemni. Bersyukur lah. Ada org lain lagi teruk keadaan and please love yourself qilah. Come on lah. Dont cut urself. Dont hate urself and please evaluate awaktu! Everyone is special in their own way wiwiwi. Alhamdulillah i gained sikit confidence. Dah reti pakai shawl yay. Dah boleh buat presentation (sikit) although my presentation sucks! Biar lah muka tak cantik badan mok ke lol but i am trying so hard to be apa eh haha. Muhasabah diri! Husnuzon sentiasa, think n be positive. HEHE CHAIYUK! 

#Notetoself jap ekeke. Dah pahal ni post ni mcm over ish.

Hm pastu apa lagi eh tahun ni hihi. Oh i bought myself a laptop. lupa nak review wiwiwi. I got dean list mueheehe. Alhamdulilah for everything.

May allah ease everything for us!!!!!! Moga allah panjangkan umur kita semua untuk perbanyakkan ibadah apa semua wiwiwi.

Happy new year semorang!

Dont forget to make the last chapter the perfect one!

remember, u only live once! ;) wiwiwi. 

sape yg belum motivated.

Mohon be positive be strong be good be wise be brave be 

Sape yg dah positive. Stay positive ok!

YOU WERE PUT ON THIS PLANET FOR A REASON SO DO NOT THINK EVEN FOR A MOMENT YOU AREN'T WORTH IT OKAY

Jgn sesedih cehwah. Im so happi now alhamdulillah. Sedih insecure low esteem tu tetap ada tapi persetan kan itu semua! Nyah kau dari sini haiiyak!

and do remember 

It hurts now, but remember that it will get better. Breathe....

Inhale. Exhale!
ok happy end of 2014!
happy 2015 :)
May allah shower his blessing to all of us hihi.